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shylock "i can fix him" bennett ([personal profile] breweries) wrote2021-03-05 06:41 am

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nerine: (Hearing everything you say)

[personal profile] nerine 2022-09-13 04:22 pm (UTC)(link)
[Well, she feels like a clown. Or maybe she can blame Iona for this, something something, speaking things into reality, something.

What is Marianna supposed to say in reply to all this? True she's used to there being other worlds and Iona and Oren always told her to keep her mind at ease in regards to those cultures. There's only so much they can do to intervene or help if they even tried. At the end of the day, she was safe from thinking too hard about the hardships of other people in other places, a casual observer in a tiny corner of the cosmos.

But here she is, mixed in with everyone else. She's not sure she can be so impartial.
]

I don't know what to say.
That really sucks.
Like that's fucking awful!


[Monts isn't commonly this crude but this isn't something to take lightly.]

But aren't we like, at least worlds away?
Forget it being the afterlife, is this Calamity that powerful that it reverberates here?
nerine: (Last night I had a dream about you)

[personal profile] nerine 2022-09-17 02:00 am (UTC)(link)
[........

After what are very long and strained minutes, she replies again. Conceding. Resigned. Aching.
]

I understand.
Just


["Just" what? She's not even a useful monster.]

You probably figured it out when I tried to help you
I don't feel pain.
There aren't a lot of people here who know, not even in our own faction.
So what I wanted to say is



Please let me know if it's too much.
Because I don't know how it feels for you
But I do know that the only hurt I can feel is if someone disappears and I just stood by wondering what it was like.
nerine: (Uncross my fingers hesitate)

[personal profile] nerine 2022-09-19 01:29 am (UTC)(link)
[Those who are of magic are eccentric; she figured as much ever since colliding with Iona and Oren and the former was around her age, Iona made for a sharp example of the fact.

The water dragon also told her as much. Those who live long are bound to cling to some obsession and it's what drives their lifespan and helps them not stagnate.

When Shylock tells her that the feeling of pain his burning heart gives him is all that he has? She understands it if only somewhat. After all, isn't she clinging to the humanity she learned from her grandparents and the crafted image she's made for herself?
]

Does the pain make you happy?
Like it tells you that you're still alive and that you exist in the here and now?
nerine: (I got you under my skin)

[personal profile] nerine 2022-09-19 07:17 pm (UTC)(link)
[......

She steels herself up before typing.
]

I don't know how it is here for me.
Maybe it's different.
But I can't feel pain.
And I can't die.
So I don't understand it at all

but i do know I'm scared
nerine: (I got you under my skin)

[personal profile] nerine 2022-09-22 03:42 am (UTC)(link)
["Is that true?

Can that be true?

How can you be so sure
wizard?"

That voice, her own voice that has been dormant, tethered to the recesses of her mind due to Hell's power whispers faintly. It hasn't been loud since the blood rain, thankfully. Looking at Shylock's words was simultaneously comforting and brought up that resentment that would never completely dry out.
]

I'm trying.
I must have gotten better at it if you say it's so.


[She's not sure what else to say because there's only so much over text that can be conveyed.]

See you at Hemlock some other evening?