If you knew how much I have to keep Ryouma from hurling himself into more danger...

[she sighs, but it's an unconscious reflex, seeking comfort, for her hand to find his own and hold it. an anchor instead of getting lost in her own thoughts.]

I know he'll stand behind me. That he'll be happy for me, which I don't know if I can stomach right now. It's...if I trip and fall over my feet as myself, then it's only me that deals with the aftermath. If this happens when I'm meant to keep the rest of the clan in mind, then it means I haven't done my duty right by them. That's what's so fearsome.